||[Oct. 30th, 2005|09:59 pm]
Why the hell does today have to be so shitty.
Will someone please tell me.
Cuz i'd like to know.
Today is the one day that i actually have off from work. and it still sucks. So now i know that limited too is not the root of all my problems. it started off well...woke up. had some cereal. talked to gregie for a while. cleaned my room some. and realized that i had to write a speech for monday. not a big deal but i had to go to staples to get transparencies and such. greg and jeff went to get tires for jeffs car...which took a bajillionn hours. and i got lonely. so i studied for my psych test...all hundred million chapters. and i just got grumpy as shit. and i wasnt being very nice. especially to greg. and i feel bad.
i dont know. i just dont feel like im not accomplishing this college deal very well. i just feel like its not going the way i planned. it's hard and its so inconvient. i knew it would be hard. but in differnt ways i guess. its just like high school...which is not pleasant. i dunno. i just thought it would be a ton different. im depressed all the time and im so grumpy because all i do is school work. and limited too work. and it sucks. and greg tells me all the time that i need to do things for me and make myself happy sometimes...and he's so right. but its so hard to do because i just feel like im failing all the time. i feel like im not accomplishing anything in school. and im not one to drop out...and i dont want to be one of those people who drop out of college. and feel like a loser all my life. i want to be something. i want to be a teacher. and there is absolutely no way to get around that. which sucks. oh well. i dont care anymore. about anything.
..i just need something to make me happy.. like my gregie..i love you..